When I lay on my bed and stare at the ceiling
and think of you
I remember those times you said we were through
or was that me?
memories blurred
yesterday was I fighting, my warrior stirred?
or was I laughing at jokes you told me
late at night when we should have been sleeping
but we weren’t
not knowing if the others eyes were open
never the words we yearned were spoken
remember the promise of road trips
and playing cards for cash?
when you said you’d teach me to swim
but alas
chlorine brings me out in a rash
“hey, who cares” you said
and we didn’t care, hot days brought naked bodies
fantasies soaring
sweat pouring
and leaky taps in the bathroom that annoyed the hell outta me
remember you saying “let it be”
let it be
I did
and we never managed to see it through
not doing those things we said we’d do
i’ll remember you the way I choose
not crying (like i did) “why the fuck did I lose!”
because really I lost nothing
i had so much to bring
and we showed up, the best we could
doing everything we believed we should
I remember the rainbow
I told you about it when you were there and I was here
when on the phone, remember I said “the rain on my face felt like the tear
I cried over you”
just the one
I lied
but the rainbow came and you hung up
a name in my inbox I decide to delete
I hope you remember me better
better than it felt we’d remember back then
even if you give me a two
I remember you now as a ten out of ten
Well written !!
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Raj, thank you so much! 🙂
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